Staying Positive

Assalamualaikum,


Smile~~ ^_^
like Keroppi~ ♥ ♥

Wassalam...

can't breathe easy

Assalamualaikum...

Words fail me at times like this.
"macam mane boleh jd camni...macam mane boleh jd camni" is the only thing in my head right now.
I guess I didn't try hard enough for what I want.

Hmmm...what doesn't destroy me, makes me stronger? I hope so.

Love me when I least deserve it, because that’s when I really need it.
-Swedish Proverb

Wasssalam...

Keep the faith

Assalamualaikum...

I feel like I'm holding on to my last strand of hope. I really need to keep the faith.
I don't need any kind of negativity right now. It's not gonna help me in any way at all.
Come on.
I can do this.

There's hope.
There's always hope.
Don't give up. Don't give in.
I need to keep the faith.

끝까지..
포기하지마!
너할수있어!

"Jika Allah menolongmu, tidak ade sesiapa yang dapat mengalahkanmu,
tetapi jika Allah membiarkanmu, maka siapa yang akan menolongmu setelah itu?
Kerana itu, hendaklah kepada Allah saja orang-orang Mukmin bertawakal."
(Ali-Imran: 160)

Wassalam...

Restu

Assalamualaikum...

This song means a lot to me for more reasons than one. ♥ ♥

~***~
Restu, Saujana

Ayah ibu, ku pohon restumu untukku
Ayah ibu, engkaulah permata hatiku
Ayah ibu, ku sembahkan laguku untukmu
Ayah ibu, hanya dikau penyeri hidupku

Restumu ibu dan ayah, cahaya kehidupan
Cinta dan belai kasihmu, bersemi di taman hati
Restumu ibu dan ayah, azimat perjuangan
Mencari impian cinta, keluarga bahagia

Saat kita bersama, hilanglah segala duka lara
Bicara kata pengubat rindu
Jasa bakti ku semat dikalbu
Moga kau bahagia selamanya
Dengan kurniaan Maha Esa
Terima kasih permata hati
Restumu tetap bersama, keakhirnya

Kasih sayangmu ibu, mekar mewangi suci abadi
Titis pengorbananmu oh ayah, tak terbalas dan terduga
Moga kau bahagia selamanya
Dengan kurniaan Maha Esa
Terima kasih permata hati
Restumu tetap bersama, keakhirnya...

~***~

This song can make me smile when I'm down.
It brings back sweet memories. ♥
I remember humming to this song in front of the computer a few years back.
Hmm..tibe2 rindu Raub. I really love that place. Not because there's anything special there but just because for my two years in TIKL, it's the place I went home to. It's the place I missed when I'm at school. It's the place I call every week. Ah~ rindunyer...♥


Wassalam...

Home~♥♥♥

Assalamualaikum...

No matter how many times I said I would update my blog more often...*sigh*. It seems like updating around twice a year is the best I can do, haha =P. Okay, I'm not gonna start the whole I'm-too-busy-with-school excuse right now because that's just gonna be a waste of everyone's time. What's important is that I'm here now, right? hehe =P. (there I go again, acting like anyone cares, huhu~)

Anyway, a few days ago, I was slacking around in front of my desktop, doing nothing in particular. I remember feeling a bit down and lonely that day and I didn't know why. While browsing away aimlessly, I stumbled upon this one song that made me..I don't know..it made me think.

These are some parts of the song that hits me:

Another sunny day has come and gone away,
in Paris and Rome (or in my case, Sydney =P),
I want to go home...
Maybe surrounded by a million people,
I still feel all alone, I just want to go home...

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life...

Another airplane, another sunny place,
I'm lucky, I know...but I want to go home...
Let me go home...
I'm just too far from where you are,
I've got to come home...

If you are thinking "Laa...homesick ke budak ni?", the answer is yes and no. No doubt I do miss home...a lot. But the song also made me think about one other thing.
"And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life..."
I may sometimes feel like I'm living someone else's life here in Sydney, but the fact is I'm not. I really need to get a grip. If going back home means going back to my "own real life", so does that mean everything I do here doesn't really matter? Come on~ Do I expect things to fall magically into place when I go home?
*sigh* Of course not...

It's just stress getting to me, I guess.

*takes a deep breath*

"Hai orang-orang beriman, jadikanlah sabar dan solat sebagai penolongmu. Sesungguhnya Allah beserta orang-orang yang sabar." (Al-Baqarah: 153)

Missing home is okay. It's just that I can't let myself forget why I'm here in the first place. I have goals to achieve. ^_^ Just need to remind myself from time to time that "Along with every hardship is relief" (Asy-Syarh: 5) and "It may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows and you do not know" (Al-Baqarah: 216).
Go nur adrianis Go!
Keep the faith~ ^___^

A little shout out to everyone I'm missing back at home! You know who you are~ *wink* =P Take care everyone! I know you miss me too, hehehe...=P I'll be back before you know it.

(^_^)

Wassalam...

Confused

Assalamualaikum...

I don’t know what do.
You make me so confused.
This is exhausting.
Make it stop.
Please leave.

No. Don’t go.
Don’t leave me confused.
I’m being paranoid.
Again.
I'm not making sense.
Even to myself.

Follow your heart.
How I despise that saying.
It’s not that easy.
Tell me.
How do you follow a lost heart?
The world is full of lies.

But still.
I get carried away by the world.
Will you get erased that way?
Maybe.
But do I want to erase you?

This isn’t right.
What’s happening to me?
Am I the only one suffering?
What’s wrong with me?
I am a fool.

I want to hide from the world.
Like the fool I am.

Wassalam..

With Love

Assalamualaikum...

Firman Allah, surah Luqman, ayat 14: "And We have enjoined on man (to be dutiful and good) to his parents. His mother bore him in weakness and hardship upon weakness and hardship, and his weaning is in two years, give thanks to Me and to your parents. To Me is the final destination".

Here's another ayat mentioning something similar; surah Al-Ahqaf, ayat 15: "And We enjoined on man to be dutiful and kind to his parents. His mother bears him with hardship. And she brings him forth with hardship, and the bearing of him, and the weaning of him is thirty months, till when he attains full strength and reaches forty years,...".

Pretty clear who I'm going to talk about, right? Huhu..The one we can never say a word of disrespect to. The one we take for granted. The one who has suffered most because of us. The one we can never be free of debts with.

Yes, our guardian angels, our beloved mothers.

The Quran mentioned numerous times how we should love, be thankful and dutiful to our parents, such as, Al-Ankabut, ayat 8 (29:8) and Al-Isra', ayat 23 (17:23). However, the ayat(s) from Al-Ahqaf and Luqman mentioned earlier, stand out for me most right now since both of them specifically mentioned mothers (which is my topic today, huhu =P). As Allah has acknowledged the hardship of a mother, it shows what a big deal this is. The difficult nature of pregnancy, nurturing us during infancy and also paying a lot of attention to us in childhood. And as if all of that aren't enough, we grew up becoming a hot-tempered, rebellious teenager with mood swings.

“And your Lord has decreed that you worship none but Him. And that you be dutiful to your parents. If one of them or both of them attain old age in your life, say not to them a word of disrespect, nor shout at them, but address them in terms of honour.", Al-Isra', ayat 23. Kalau mak buat salah kat kite, pandang sebelah mata je. Be patient. Put up with the harsh treatment she may give you from time to time. Yes, she has suffered THAT much for you. The last thing you want to do is provoke her and make her angry. She deserves your respect at all time. Jika mak tak ikut syariat pun, you can never treat her carelessly, as Allah says in surah Luqman, ayat 15, "But if they strive with you to make you join in worship with Me, others that of which you have no knowledge, then obey them not; but behave with them in the world kindly,..".

I love my mother and I'm sure you love yours, even if sometimes we forget what a blessing she really is. Day by day, let's try to be better daughters and sons. Let try to not hurt them again as they deserve much much better. Sentiasa ingat untuk doakan mereka setiap hari, "...My Lord, bestow on them Your Mercy as they did bring me up when I was young", Al-Isra', ayat 24.

(^_^)

For her birthday and mother's day (which falls on the same day this year), I dedicate this post to the queen of my heart, the one who taught me how to love, my mom.

Mom, I can never love anyone like I love you. No one can EVER do what you've done for me. I love you for now and for always.

Wassalam...